Sunday, September 10, 2017

Written vomit

So, the blog rises from the dead.  I have discovered a need recently for this lovely place. I need a spot to be completely open and honest about my struggles, somewhere I can just kind of verbally throw up when I'm having a horrific day.
I'm going to lump the last three months under the title of horrific day.  Today, however was pretty unfun even in comparison.

Today, I found out my set designer for the show I am currently directing couldn't build an essential piece for my show and also somehow misunderstood a conversation we had for another piece.  This has left me scrambling to find out a way to build two very large essential set pieces in about three days while going to school full time.  I also got the news my stage manager will no longer be doing the show.  Great.  Now I am scrambling to find someone to cover that position as well.

My husband continues to struggle with his bipolar and as a result I feel like a single parent to my 2 year old and 5 year old much of the time.  I so appreciate my parents and all they do, but I do get stressed out because I have two very active small children who are not always the best listeners and can be challenging on their best days.  I often feel pulled so many different directions I don't know which way to go.

I have returned to school this year and find a great deal of personal satisfaction in it, so it's frustrating when I am unable to do my homework when needed.  I am enjoying studying a field that is so opposite from everything I have ever done.  2yr old decided that my reading time was when she would create no less than 3 giant food messes for me to clean up.  Frustration doesn't even begin to describe my feelings.  I may have cut myself a giant piece of ice cream birthday cake and had that for dessert.  It was delicious.

One thing I am going to try to do, is always end with something positive.
Tonight, 5yr old gave me that.  Tonight 5yr old curled up on his logical, not the most understanding Papa's lap and they cuddled together peacefully for a good 30 minutes.  It made my heart happy.

So, this is short.  I am exhausted and have statistics at 8am.  I am sure things will vary in length, but this is what I need for tonight.  So, goodnight.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Reality Check, Please!

So, here it is. My first foray into blogging. This is a place for me to discuss any and all musical theatre/Performing Arts related things. Everything from what's going on, on Broadway, to what's going on in my home town; from Dance recitals to "So You Think You Can Dance". I don't claim to be an expert on anything and intend only to create a place where people can discuss and commiserate. These are my opinions and as such are subject to change.

So!

Last night I finished watching the start of "So You Think You Can Dance" Season 7. I was amazed at the abilities of many I watched and also stunned at the lack of reality others had about their skills and talents.

I think our culture of inclusivity and encouragement has allowed people to be completely deluded about their abilities. I'm not saying we shouldn't include people or encourage them. What I am saying is we all have different talents. I think it's very healthy to be honest and say to a person, "You know, your talent just doesn't lie with this, why don't you try something else and keep searching?"

The problem is, usually when that's said, it's after years of that person being told they can do anything and they are really great; which can actually just be someone not having the guts to say to them that they aren't really good at what they are attempting. That's not to say you have to crush a person. Just be honest with them about what you see and encourage them (the correct way of using encouragement!) to try something similar which they may enjoy just as much and may find they have a talent for. Hooray for diversifying our talent base!

False encouragement doesn't always lead to someone having delusions about what they do. But when I see someone going onto a show that is broadcast nationally and embarassing themselves like that it just breaks my heart.

I do realize some people do it for the publicity, to get their 15 minutes of fame, but some honestly believe they have abilities that just aren't there. That belief had to come from somewhere, from someONE telling them they had those abilities.

There's a second part to the equation too. Hard work. Many times, hard work can make up for a lack of talent. But, it does mean really committing to changing how your body or mind works. And you still may not be able to compete with those who work hard AND have a natural talent.

For example, when I was younger, I was the most awkward thing on two legs. I decided I wanted to do theatre, which meant being as diversified as I could. What did I do? I immersed myself in dance classes, working hard to change my body. I found I had a talent for tap dance, so I really made sure to develop that. I will never be a ballarina, but that's ok. I took as many ballet classes as I could so I at least had that technique and wouldn't make an idiot of myself at a dance call. I know I will never be able to do what natural dancers are able to do. But I am proud of myself for being able to keep up and hey, I learned how to walk and chew gum at the same time!

What's your opinion on talent or lack thereof?